Bila mau masuk meminang??

Who should pop the question first; the guy or the girl?

I don't mind asking him; " Bila agaknya kita nak kawin?"... but when i asked one of my friends; cuya whether she asked the same question to her other half, her answer would be....

"Ko gila?"

"kenapa pulak? Tanya je... janganlah gesa..."

And then she would just shook her head. "ish, x nak la..."

"Ko x nak dia?"

"Ish, bukan mcm tu..."

"Dah tu? Bila ko nak kawin? Bkn pe, teman ghase dgn usia kamu yg dah hampir mencecah andalusia ni, dah patut benor kamu menikah..."

"@##! lu nala... yang ko tanya aku ni kenapa?"

" tu... kat jari tu dah ada... benda tu org yg dah dirisik je pakai tau... tu cincin tanda namanya... anak dara belum dirisik mana pakai... So aku kena tanya uncle ke?"

" err... entoh..." she shrugged he shoulders.

Entahlah pulak... I'm really happy for her now that she's finally found someone whom she really cares about cos I've never seen her like this before... i know she really cares for him... does he feel the same way too? I don't want her to be hurt, cos it would take her probably another 25 years to recover from the pain. Jgnkan andalusia; terus jd andarusang (anak dara usang) nanti, huhu... apapun... kalau ada jodoh x kemana... kan... tp perlu jugak usaha... kalau x usaha meminang, x kan dgn sendirinya boleh bertunang... cincin dah ada di jari... so; uncle, bila lagi u nak memaknakan lagi hubungan u all? i'm asking because... i think she's too shy to ask... huahuahua (gelak jahat)..

Kerana Pulut Santan Binasa...

I was watching my favourite drama series; Nur Kasih on tv3 a few hours ago. One of the characters; Sarah reminded me of someone at work.

Bukan kerana beliau gedik, bukan juga kerana beliau tergila2kan seseorang seperti Sarah tergila-gilakan Aidil, dan bukan juga kerana Sarah pakai tudung senget benget…

Kerana apa?

She really loves to cucuk sana cucuk sini…. Let’s just call her tukang cucuk lah ye…

I really hate it when she comes to my cubicle and starts to gossip about people…

“Anak-anak si polan tu nakal yang amat….”

“Ala, si Z tu ada kes kat skola lama… Big boss kita bkn suka sgt dia tu, dia tau org tu bukannya tau buat keje, ntah mcmana boleh jadi guru cemerlang agaknya…”

“Ah, dia tu bukannya cantik pun… harapkan kulit je putih…”

Setiap kali dia berbicara aku cuma diam dan beristighfar panjang di dalam hati… Jika sepatah aku mengiakan, dia akan memutar belit kenyataan dan bercerita pada orang lain bahawa, “Nana kata ….”

Kerana mulutnya…. Beberapa orang cikgu di sekolah pernah tidak bertegur sapa…

Kerana mulutnya… Aku pernah memandang serong pada Kak Ina; second boss kami. Tukang cucuk would make statement such as, “Second boss kata kita x boleh bagi muka sgt pada orang2 baru ni, nak2 lagi yang mcm u…” Bila dah terlampau byk sgt statement yang keluar dr mulut dia tentang flaws orang lain, aku mula membuat penilaian… dan aku akan pergi terus bertanya pada orang yg kononnya mengeluarkan statement tertentu menurut tukang cucuk itu.

“Astaghfirullahal’azim… Siapa cakap ni Nana? Akak x cakap macam tu pun… dia yang kata macam tu… aku cuma kata; ‘ye ke’ je… Dia kata akak pulak yang kata Nana macam tu? Nak kena jumpa dia ni…”

“Err.. I don’t think so lah kak… x apa, kalau makin menjadi2, ramai2 kita confront dia… akan dtg harinya. Kita sabar je lah ya…”

Aku pernah memandang serong pada Kak Zue… Somehow I got the chance to know her, and I found out that she was nothing like the tukang cucuk had told me before. She is indeed a nice lady. Tukang cucuk doesn’t like her because she is pretty and she is the centre of attention at school. Atas sebab itu je ke? One of the reasons la… yang paling x best adalah… She would cucuk Big Boss that A is not doing her work, B is always having her class at the PSP… dan pelbagai lagi umpama menabur pasir di dalam periuk nasi orang.

Everytime I see her talking to other teachers now, I would stay away from her. From a distance I could see her whispering something… I just shook my head, and log in to my FB. Hehe… Layan FB lagi bagus… Deep in my heart, I pray that she would change…. Usia mencecah 50an dah aunty oii… sudah2 la…

Fwens....

A couple of days ago, a friend of mine; F texted me at YM. We haven’t been speaking to one another for quite some time… He used to be a close friend of mine in Uitm Kuantan. Bf? Nope... besfren ye.. Aku masih ingat time kami pergi ke pasar malam di taman perumahan belakang UiTM , lepak2 minum2 makan roti canai dan fries petang2 di warung2 depan UiTM di mana salah satu petang yang kami lepak beramai2 Cuya kehilangan handphone beliau yang dah kira paling canggih la zaman tu sbb lampu dalam handphone tu warna putih sedangkan kami yang lain warna kuning atau biru. Hehe.. Sorry Cuya if u feel devastated if I remind u about ur missing handphone.yang macam Zoa punya tu.

Back to F; we used to be close. Lama betul x mendengar khabar darinya sejak kami tidak lagi berkawan rapat bagai waktu dlu, hehe.. Riang juga rasanya bila mendapat text message darinya di YM.

“Hi nala”

“Hi F..”

“Kenapa kita bergaduh dulu ya? Padahal sebelum tu kita rapat gila..”

I stopped to think for a while. “Kita bergaduh ke?”

“Entah..”

Nope… Kami tidak pernah bergaduh… I kept a distance from him because there were a couple of my girl friends who really liked him. Siapa? Rahsia… Mereka x menyatakan secara terang-terangan yang mereka tidak senang; tapi aku tau la kan… dari body language diorang… Tapi bila fikir balik, itu semua kebodohan zaman muda remaja… kenapa pulak aku harus menjauhkan diri sebab ada orang lain nak rapat dengan dia? Patutnya kawan jelah… kan berkawan biar seribu… x pasal2 aku x merasai persahabatan dgn beliau sewaktu di UiTm Sec 17, Shah Alam.

X pe F, pasni kita kawan balik mcm biasa eh? Nanti aku singgah KB, kita g minum2…

But I had a lot of fun with my girls in shah alam… Ex housemate; Cuya… Lyd… Manja… Gipak… Peed… Ceda… and not forgetting other girlfriends; Pia, Ira Rox, Pjoy, Dila, K. Nora, Fer, Haliza Halim, Nana UG, Cik Siti Zainal, Awere, Pau, Atil…

Teringat pesanan cikgu Saniah; one of my ex teachers; “berkawan biar seribu, bercinta biar ramai2… berkawin biar seorang…” Huhu….

Aku x dpt nak lelapkan mata bila mula-mula habis study dulu. Sebelum tido dah terbiasa dgn keadaan kami bertiga; aku, Lyd and Cuya akan berborak2 smbil baring smpai terlelap… dan biasanya memang akulah yg terlelap dlu… haha… ingat x Cuya? There was this one time I was talking to cuya; selang beberapa saat cuya membalas perbualan aku dah berdengkur. Memang dia pelik… dan kadang2 aku menyampuk percakapan Cuya dan Lyd sedangkan aku tido masa tu. Bila bangun pagi, aku x ingat pun peristiwa aku menyampuk. Aku memang pantang letak kepala kat bantal, confirm lelap… tapi masa mula2 habis study, sukar bagiku utk lelapkan mata. Rasa kosongnya hidup… sunyi je tanpa riuh rendah kawan2… puas bergolek atas katil, x lelap2 juga. Takut tido sorang pun ye juga, dah biasa tido ramai2 sebilik…

Seronoknya jalan-jalan cari makan dulu… Kedai Kopi… Pak Li Kopitiam… Ingat x chicken chop De Palma café kat SACC Mall? Dapat PTPTN je tempat dituju adalah Nando’s… kedai lilin utk dinner… namun DE tetap kunjungan tetap kita kerna kita x bisa duduk diam jika x merasa kari mamak dlm seminggu… hoho… Owh the good old days…

I love my girl friends for being there for me… My ex housemates especially… Thank you so much for lending ur ears to all my problems, lending me ur shoulders to cry on… Aku pernah mengalami dugaan yang sangat getir dalam hidupku… dan Lyd turut menangis bersamaku, Sayang gak ko kat aku kan? Thank u girls. I miss u guys so damn much…

Meet the parents II : Hypocrite?

"Macammana na terfikir nak pakai jubah hr tu?" he asked me again over the phone a couple of days ago.

"Emm... Na mmg pakai jubah ke sekolah. Abg je yg x tau.."

" Yeke? Baguslah kalau mcm tu..."

" Tapi jubah pakai hari jumaat... hari khamisnya Na pakai kebaya nyonya.. hehe.."

" Mmmm..." I could sense a change in his voice tone.

"Jadi jubah tu fesyen je la ye?"

I chuckled. "Mmm... Insya Allah, satu hari nanti Na akan pakai jubah selalu..."

"Pakai baju kurung pun x apa... x payahlah pakai kebaya.."

" Tapi org kata na pakai kebaya tu cantik..."

"Nak dgr kata org ke kata abg?" lembut nada suaranya.

Erk... "Ok... "

"Macam tu lah..." I could sense that he was smiling.. I seemed to lose my tongue with this guy. I am not me...

A colleague, Faz who also can't wait for her big day asked me abt my meeting with his parents. She was shocked when she knew what I was wearing... She told me she only wore jeans and t-shirt when she met her in-laws-to-be... She doesn't want to be hypocrite. Well... i just don't think Z's mother like the idea of her daughter-in-law-to-be to wear jeans and t-shirt when i'm meeting her for the first time.

It's not about being hypocrite. it's about manners... We speak differently when we are with
friends and those who are older than we are... rite? We have dress codes to work, to go to a party etc... i was following the dress code to meet the future-in-laws. As for Faz, i think her in laws don't mind.. it's all depends on their background... afterall, Z told me that her mother rejected his ex gf before cos she was wearing jeans and t-shirt to his house.

See?

Nani told me an amazing story(i think it's amazing) of her friend who was rejected after the first time his ex bf brought her home to meet his family. Not only that she was wearing jeans to hi pious ex bf's house; she even took her tudung off when she arrived at his house. Sengal ke x? And Nani told me that she was sitting in a not-very-decent position while they were watching
tv... ala... ibu kata duduk mcm org kalah judi... ha.. that's it... And... yup... she was rejected... she
said she only wanted to be herself... yeah, rite... like i said, it's not abt being hypocrite. it's
about manners..

Adab. Nnti org kata mak ayah x ajar adab gi rumah orang.... betul x?

When things mentioned above happen, we tend to blame others and think that we are right... hypocrite? Nay.... mind ur manners girls... i think Nani's story is amazing cos.... itu mcm punya worang pun ada ka??

Meet the Parents...

Recently I've had my first meeting with my other half's family. i've been having goosebumps for the whole week; i even went to a tailor in paya rumput (which is something i hv never ever done in my life since all my baju kurung were sewed by ibu)... siap tempah baju kurung pahang lagi, owkay... i wanted to look great when i meet them.

I was so excited over my new baju kurung pahang (some people call it baju kurung pesak gantung) that i stuck some diamantes on it. With a smiling face i showed it off in front of ibu and later dissapointed when ibu said.... "kau nak pakai tu ke jumpa mak dia?"

"Kenapa? x boleh ke?"

"Kau ni... mak dia tu kan pakai tudung labuh... dia pun kan blaja al-azhar... x kan nak pakai mcm ni, x sesuai... nak g dinner2 boleh la.. jarang baju ni..." she frowned.

"Okay je na tgk... kan na pakai inner?" i just couldn't understand why she didn't want me to wear this.. cantik tau... yes, it was kinda transparent, but i can wear an inner...kan?

"Dah, jangan nak mengada2... pakai baju lain... pakai inner pun nampak gak bentuk badan. dah tau Z tu mcm tu, ko nak pakai baju mcm ni lak."

Devastated by her statement, i spent the whole night staring into the depth of my closet... Finally, kak N, a colleague suggested me to wear my turqoise jubah which she thinks looks good on me... and of course, i look decent wearing it, duh...

Then, the day had finally arrived. With my turqoise jubah, a long flowing black skirt (the jubah was a lil' short; showing off my ankle so i had to put on a long skirt), handsocks (ehem), socks and a pair of black boots; I was accompanied by Nani, my sis. All the way to his house; which is in Banting, I couldn't stop praying and reciting prayers given by a colleague; ustazah rosita... doa memudahkan urusan... and doa melembutkan hati ibu mertua... huhu... God, I was nervous...

Berdebarnya diri Allah saje yg tahu tatkala aku mjejakkan kaki ke tetangga (is there such word?) rumahnya...

He smiled. "relax la... jemput duduk" katanya. I chose to sit on the floor cos there was this table ala2 japanese style. Nani sat next to me.

"Mak mana bang?" terjenguk2 aku memandang ke arah dalam rumahnya.

"Mak tgh masak. Ada kat dapur tu... Nak jumpa g lah dapur.." selamba dia berkata smbil mengunyah rempeyek... tidakkah dia tahu hatiku yg sedang libang libu ini?

He stared at me. a long stare.

"Kenapa pandang na mcm tu?"

"Macammana na leh terfikir nak pakai mcmni? Sepanjang kita kenal, na x penah pun pakai mcm ni?"

I smiled... then I stood up; and then i sat down again. "Mcmana Nani? Nak g dapur ke?"

Nani shrugged her shoulder. "Ntah... "

I stood up again. I moved forward a lil' bit, trying to make my way to the kitchen... but after two steps i stopped. "Takut lah Nani... Meh la teman..."

And there, his mother was frying some veggies. She smiled as i handed her my famous steamed-chocolate cake. "Oh... yg Zaki bawak balik minggu lepas tu keknya ko yg buat lah ye?"

I nodded.. and smiled again... God I smiled a lot that day.

And it went quite well... Cik abang pulak yang makan beria2 mcm tetamu hari tu.. bertambah2 makannya...

:) I'm hoping for the best... doakan kami!

kata2 abang sentiasa terngiang2 di telingaku... "Kita harus percaya pd jodoh... pada janji Allah..."

Ahhh... Aku syg kamu...

Insya-Allah.... Amin....

Ketika cinta bertasbih...

Ketika cinta bertasbih


Bertuturlah cinta mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabda-Mu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih mengutus hati ini
Ku sandarkan hidup dan matiku pada-Mu
Bisikkan doaku dalam butiran tasbih
Ku panjatkan pintaku padaMu Maha Cinta
Sudah diubun-ubun cinta mengusik rasa
Tak bisa ku paksa walau hatiku menjerit
Ketika cinta bertasbih nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud syukur pada-Mu atas segala cintaCinta...
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud syukur pada-Mu atas segala cinta
Ketika cinta bertasbih

…

been bz...

it's been a while...

been bz with fasting month.. n i was bz selling cakes.. huhu..
and my lovelife sucks!
it's over between Az and I..


Z is back - for good. que sera sera..

My diet tips

People have been asking me about my diet, so i decided to share my tips. I used to follow the non-carb diet by Dr Musa, then i realised it was bad for my body.

The Most Important Rule : Discipline

That's the biggest secret which apparently is a secret no more..

My friends asked me stuff like, "What did you do when you happen to drive pass the McD drve through?"

Ignore it. Believe me, it was HARD.

Dieting doesnt mean skipping meals. I take 3 meals perday, with snacks.
if you want to lose your weight, you should cut on carbs, oils and fats. Oh ya, not forgetting; sugar. Take a lot of veggies and protein. They help you lose weight. And also calcium.

You would lose your weight if you start you day with 100 ml milk (low fat/skimmed milk). My all-time favourite is the 12 grains milk by Marigold(yang kotaknye mcm kulit lembu-hitam tompok2 putih). Drink a lot of plain water. Do not ever take sweet drinks like carbonated drinks, cordials. replace them with soy drink (less sugar); Nesvita nd Soyrich are the best.

For your snack, eat tempe, fruits or 2-3 pieces of biscuits (less sugar); Low Salt hi-Fibre/ Wheetameal from Jacob's. Tempe tu gaul dgn bwg putih yg ditumbuk and then goreng; minyak sikit je. I use Soy oil, not the normal palm oil.


I would just give my diet menu for 3days..

Monday

Breakfast at 6.30 am - a mug of low fat milk+oat

Snack at 10.30am - half of a guava

Lunch at 12.30pm - Chicken Sandwiches consist of
3 pieces of Gardenia Breakthrough bread
(Tumis bwg putih 2 biji dgn myk soya, masukkan dada ayam
yang dipotong kiub, carrot, tomatoes, celeries; semua potong kiub kecil2,
serbuk lada hitam, sedikit garam, kacau hgga masak then masukkan
putih telur. kacau smpai masak, angkat.)

Dinner at 6.30 pm - sup sayur (rebus sahaja)


Tuesday

Breakfast - a bowl of cereal (bran) with milk+a few raisins

Lunch - a ladel of brown rice, vegetable soup, fish (sesenduk je nasi tau! beras perang)

Dinner - a piece of wholemeal/ breakthrough Gardenia bread/ bun, a mug of soy bean drink

snack (makan bila terasa lapar) - guavas, green apples, oranges, fried tempe with garlic.


Wednesday

Breakfast - a mug of nestum+skimmed milk+milo (w/out sugar)

Lunch - soy noodles (mi soya kering, ada dijual di pasar raya); buat sup sayur
then masukkan mi soya. boleh tambah dada ayam and telur.

Dinner - Tempe goreng, green apples, soy bean drinks.


Tak larat la pulak nak buat menu banyak hari... If you want to eat chicken, make sure you take only chicken breast, without the skin. Instead of taking fried chicken, take roasted/steamed chicken. If you feel hungry, eat fruits and drink a lot of plain water.

ONE MORE THING: EXERCISE

You dont have to jog or run 10kilometres a day... Brisk walking is the best. Memadai kalau brisk walking 30minutes each session, 3-5times a week.

As a start, brisk walk for 20 minutes the first week (kelajuan sederhana). Minggu berikutnya baru buat 30minutes' brisk walk; jalan laju sikit. You will see the difference the week after, insya-Allah.. i also did some yoga (streching je tau, xde meditation) for 20minutes after the brisk walking to tone some parts of my body.

So those who would like to slim down out there, jom kita cantik dan sihat sesama! I need to lose another 15kg and I'm still working on it! Jom!!

Yep, they definitely are from Mars!

Once I was in this relationship with a guy; M whom i thought was sexy cos he loves cats like i do... yep, guys who loves animals are indeed sexy... I felt as if we were made for each other; we had a lot of things in common, our family knew each other plus his aunt is my mother's best friend, we would text one another everysingle day, and he was the one who started planning our future... i was like; "Whooaa... chill will ya?" But he went on and on giving me hopes that we would grow old together, taking turns to clean our cats' poops and knitting sweaters while having our tea with cekodok bilis...

I wasn't sure of our status but I just assumed that we were an item; since we have been seeing each other for quite some time... he would be checking the text messages in my handphone, he would sulk for days if he found 'friendly' messages from other guys plus he would keep on asking who called me if I was on the phone... so... i guessed we were in a relationship; don't you think so? I mean, we are not in high school anymore, we don't need any 'declaration' that we are an item, right? Orang kata, faham-faham sendiri lah...

But then again, i forgot that he is from Mars...

A long lost boyfriend; Az text me at YM one day. The feeling is still there... my heart would skip a beat each time we chat. Az and I were having an on-off relationship... we've had our ups and downs, he had let me down a few times but somehow he was still on my mind every now and then.. hmmm.. I dreamt about him at night and would be looking forward to his text messages every morning after he text me at YM the other day... I told him about M, and he was jealous I guess... and suddenly I felt uncertain about my relationship with M and I was asking myself; am I really in a relationship with this M guy? I mean, yes, we were seeing each other and he would be jealous if i was texting other guys so... am I his girlfriend?

I didn't have the guts to ask M; I mean, malu seh kalau dia kata, "bila pulak kita couple nih?" I couldn't help myself from asking him since Az was back in my life. I needed to know.

I wasn't really into M but it broke my heart when i heard from my mom what M said to his mother (since my mom is a good friend of M's aunt). His mom asked him about us, apparently he said, "kitorang kawan je." I was speecehless. Ke hulu ke hilir selama ni... tapi kawan je rupanya... dok jeles aku meses lelaki lain, kawan je rupanya... ohhh... i made a terribly wrong assumption... would anyone else assume the same? the problem was, he didn't say a word to me. I finally had the guts to ask him about us; whether there was 'US'.

He didn't give me the exact answer. Berdolak - dalih. "Kita kawan-kawan dulu la... sampai masa nanti kita fikir pasal kawin... tapi I x nak U tunggu I.."

So I was the one who decided, " Macam nilah, since U takut nak cakap apa yg U nak ckp, biar i yg ckp... kita kawan biasa je. Mulai hari ni. U x boleh kata apa kalau i kawan dgn lelaki lain... ok?"

M accepted.

I was pissed off, not bcoz he didnt want to commit, but bcoz he didnt tell me earlier about our status. He had given me the idea that we were together but when i asked him , 'Where are we? Where are we going to?', he freaked out. Why didnt he tell me in the first place so that I could move on? I mean, it's not that I want him to propose me at once when he admits that we are an item, i just wanted to know where the relationship is leading to. Men... they are like that. They want you, but they don't want to commit. They dont wanna let you go, cos they need you to be with them when they are tired after working for 12 hours, they need you to listen to their blabbings about work... they made you feel important; but when you want to be important in their life, they would just kick your a**.

Oh well... i wasn't that much into him... I'm hoping the best for Az and I now... I'm trying to understand him but I know I won't. They have the habit of not telling you where they are, they have the habit of "oh, although i didnt call you that much , it doesnt mean that i dont care.."

Afterall, they are from Mars!

Jale-jale Kelate...

Posing kat pokok di 'Taman Ulat' di MRSM PC

Last Saturday and Sunday was my bench marking visit to MRSM Pengkalan Chepa and apparently my fisrt time in Kelantan! i was freaked out cos it was my first time on a plane too... kesian mak, kan? Mabuk dalam plane cos it was raining Saturday morning and the turbulance made me felt sick! Plus Asri kept on talking about his experience witnessing the birth of his 3 children which made my condition worse. Dari anak first smpai lah yang last... tiba2 kapten pun announce yg kami dah nak mendarat. cepatnya!

bersama cikgu2 BI MRSM P.Chepa

Kota Bharu was nothing like i've imagined. I've never been to K.B before and people kept giving me wrong information about the town. I like it there; since i could only see Malays everywhere and the Kelantanese were really friendly to me! i was hunting for laksam and nasi kerabu but they were nowhere to be found! kenapa ye? and the tomyam was not good... sedap lagi tomyam di Melaka yang of coz pemilik+pekerja+tukang masaknya org Kelantan! Orang melaka buat tomyam x best... lainlah kalau asam pedas..

posing mengada2 aku & Asri

The funny part was; the benchmarking visit to MRSM PC (on the second day) only took 2hours of our 2day-trip. We spent another 48hours shopping, touring Kelantan(sampai ke pengkalan Kubor tuu) and sleeping of coz! huhu... I had fun shopping there; tp sekali sekala tingat family di umah... kucing2 ku... dan of coz tingat si dia yg offshore... resah gelisah juga hati di bumi Kelantan terkenang2 yg jauh di mata; padahal 2 hari je ke sana!

I'm definitely going back to Kelantan, insyAllah!